Dear Jasmine,

Dearest,

            I don't know what state of mind I am supposed to have after being through all these small many things in this rollercoaster called life but I do know that life is hard. Emotions are not constant and neither are troubles. Certain things are surely bothering the state of mind in you, I can feel that. I have a habit of talking to the mirror since... ever! So, learning from my own face I have learnt to see people's smile and expression and can know when a smile is kinda fake. Yours is. Sometimes.

I am always in a constant hope that good things will come in life like a box of chocolates someday. So I sit patiently and wait. With a similar fake smile I guess.

What I'm trying to say is.. See life is hard... but it is the most beautiful thing there is. You dont want to wait to be at peace at heaven... who knows if it really exists. Even with the pain,life is dark.. like a canvas painted black with acrylic or emptiness, also like a canvas without a color. I hope we can make white stars by using our tears as the acrylic in the darkness of that canvas can't we? And red sunset with blood maybe? As long as there is a person there is a dream. There is a hope. There is happiness. Inside pain maybe.. but there is somewhere the heart can lay in the meadows of calmness.
And to see all that, to face through those and to see good things. We should do is stay strong. I have been in hospital bed for 2 weeks and trust me its even more depressing. I have seen enough deaths in my life 😅 some actual, and some cut ties which is good as being dead.. so I wont say I'd kill you so blantly for you being upset over some small things. Some troubles are small and some troubles are big, but as long as they are disrupting your state of mind, they carry the equal weight for different souls. I know sometimes the life itself pins you down so hard thats it seems impossible to stand back up. It seems better to be crushed under that gravitational pull than trying to stand up and breaking your legs, But I certainly would love to see you alive, happy and stealing money plants and taking candids. Please do eat, and take care of yourself.

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